I did not know that “apricity” is the warmness of sun in winter, but I am very glad to know it. I felt like today had those vibes.
Given the kind of week(s) it’s been, I feel like I should have more to say, but I’ve said it elsewhere, and right now I’m just getting down with this stroopwafel, if we’re being fully honest.
Playlist (also available here on Spotify): Black Moth Super Rainbow – Forever Heavy Omri Smadar/Siam – In the Realm Of Moonton – Max Bleep (Maruwa Remix) Omar S/John FM – In My City Moscoman (feat. WOOZE) – Eyes Wide Strut Jex Opolis – I’ll Give You Everything Munir – Aquarius (BED) Death Bells – Heavenly Bodies A Projection – Darwin’s Eden Kontravoid – Too Deep The Foreign Resort – Dead End Roads Sisters of Mercy – This Corrosion Pie Are Squared – Flügezüge (BED) Kairon; IRSE! – Valorians Mute Swan – Sedative Sun BODEGA – How Did This Happen?! Tobacco – Honey of the Trick Acid Horse – No Name No Slogan Pie Are Squared – Apricity (BED) Generationals – Bobby Beale Ladytron – Blue Jeans 2.0 Cabaret Voltaire – Don’t Argue Charlie – Spacer Woman Pye Corner Audio – Exhumed (BED) Interpol – NYC
Playlist (also on Spotify here): Oneohtrix Point Never – Boring Angel Joy Division – Atmosphere …And You Will Know Us By the Trail of Dead – How Near, How Far Cloud Nothings – The Spirit Of Sunny Day Real Estate – Snibe STRFKR – Anxiety Interpol – PDA (BED) Manic Street Preachers – Peeled Apples Failure – Solaris New Order – Your Silent Face Nine Inch Nails – Beside You In Time Nine Inch Nails – And All That Could Have Been STRFKR – Bunji (BED) The Cure – Disintegration At the Drive-In – Non-Zero Possibility The Alan Parsons Project – Eye in the Sky The Avalanches/Blood Orange – We Will Always Love You STRFKR – Sleep (BED) Opeth – Death Whispered a Lullaby Porcupine Tree – Collapse the Light Into Earth ANOHNI – Drone Bomb Me Slowdive – When the Sun Hits Shearwater – The Snow Leopard STRFKR – Zee Majoor (BED) Drab Majesty – Oxytocin
Happy International Day/Week/Month/Year of the Women, my friends. Now if you’ll excuse me, I have 18 Libby pages left in a book that’s due tomorrow at 9:30 AM.
Playlist (also on Spotify here): Sheila Chandra – Quiet 9 Spk – High Tension Au Pairs – It’s Obvious Ringo Deathstarr – Stare at the Sun SRSQ – Unkept Ladytron – Deadzone Cut Copy – Cold Water (Katelyn Aurelia Smith remix) (BED) Eva Geist – Urban Monogamy Kate NV – Plans Peggy Gou – It Makes You Forget Marie Davidson – I Dedicate My Life The Knife – Forest Families Laurel Halo – Sunlight on the Faded (dub) (BED) Patriarchy – Burn the Witch SUUNS – Infinity (Beatrice Dillon Remix) Noctural Sunshine – Gravity (feat. RY X) Jessy Lanza – VV Violence Vanessa Worm – 0000 (BED) Jenny Hval – High Alice Keluar – Intinct Boy Harsher – Westerners Lebanon Hanover – Living on the Edge Cocteau Twins – Amelia Blevin Blectum – Benadrilled and taking on water (BED) Chelsea Wolfe & Emma Ruth Rundle – Anhedonia
Hi. I pulled inspiration from all over the place this week, and I think the central pillars of whatever came together here were driven by the luscious novel I just finished, Plain Bad Heroines by Emily M. Danforth. I’m way too tired to do it justice in any kind of review right now, but it’s definitely worth picking up if you haven’t yet.
It’s slowly but surely beginning to feel a little less hopeless ’round these parts, what with the weather changing, the days growing, and the vaccines beginning to be obtainable by… literally anyone I know. But some of us have been burned a bit too often to lean into whatever optimism the usual spring un-doldrums might produce, so we might find ourselves feeling like the songs on this playlist. Idk. That is at least how I feel, at the precipice of something maybe good but also maybe another trip and fall down the metaphoric mountain.
Molly Nilsson sings this in the song that gave us our episode title of the evening: “And you can sleep through the summer days / I know you think I’m morbid when I say / I hope you die by my side / The two of us at the exact same time.” I’m thinking about the knowledge that comes in the warmth of those summer days – you have them and you love them and your appreciation makes them end faster than any much shorter day in the winter. The law of paradoxical intent. It’s not that dark, it’s just an observation. This show is an observation of how it feels. Not just this week, but pretty much all weeks, I think.
That’s what we’re going for, at least.
Playlist (also on Spotify here): King Buffalo – Eta Carinae The Faint – ESP The Units – High Pressure Days (Rory Phillips Mix) The Rapture – Whoo! Alright – Yeah… Uh-Huh. !!! – Shit Scheisse Merde Pt. 1 (Instrumental) – BED She Past Away – Soluk The Sisters of Mercy – Floorshow Schonwald – Inner Sin Molly Nilsson – I Hope You Die Cofaxx – Night Mode, Pt. 1 (BED) Lauer & Fabrizio Mammarella – Atlalenanti Syzygy – (I’ll Just Be) Unfulfilled Black Spuma – Black Spuma Borusiade – Jeopardy Bot1500 – Seabird Pt. 1 (BED) Lucy Dacus – In the Air Tonight Pye Corner Audio – Perfect Secrecy Forever Void Vision – The Source Geneva Jacuzzi/Patriarchy – I Don’t Want To Die (Geneva Jacuzzi Remix) Tremor – Viajante Cofaxx – Night Mode, Pt. 2 (BED) Tones On Tail – Performance The Neon Judgment – Don’t Wish Me Luck Xeno & Oaklander – Sheen Andre Obin – The Arsonist Bot1500 – Seabird, Pt. 2 (BED) Drab Majesty – The Foyer
Hi everybody. This week was better, continuing the upswing of the one before. I didn’t have a ton of time to work on the playlist but I’m pretty OK with how it turned out. There are some songs new to me on there that really caught my attention, like the Jenny Hval collaboration with… someone?? Anyway, this week’s mix was a nice combo of returning to some things I haven’t heard in a long time and discovering stuff that seems great.
I would not say it is beginning to feel like spring here, but it is starting to feel different – we’ve gotten to the point where there’s enough sun and warm(ish) days to start melting the grubby snow all over the place. In the glow of the blue light I have on, a few green stickers in here are looking fluorescent yellow. It’s wild. And the moon is enormous today.
As I work on this post, I have Donato Dozzy’s Plays Bee Mask going on in the background and this is a great one for late night tales. When we were eating unripe pears…
Playlist (also available on Spotify here): Donato Dozzy – Vaporware 03 Perfume Genius – Grid topographies – This Evening Also Tijuana Taxi – Sagittarius A* Yoo Doo Right, Jasmine Trails – Marche Police Des Moeurs – Premiere neige Benedek – Doodat Brian Eno – Distant Hill (BED) Boy Harsher – Electric (Kris Baha Remix) Skinny Puppy – One Time One Place Molchat Doma – Ne Smeshno Ghost Culture – Mouth A Sagittariun – Minor Malfunction (BED) Easter – Muscle S U R V I V E – Floating Cube Pixx – Peanuts Grow Underground UNKLE – Do Yourself Some Good Martin Gore – Howler (BED) Laszlo Dancehall – Fatty Que Osunlade – Dionne Donato Dozzy – Vaporware 06 (BED) VCMG – Spock Acid Arab, Cem Yildiz – Ejma Lost Girls, Jenny Hval, Havard Volden – Menneskekollektivet Martin Gore – Capuchin (BED) HTRK – Real Headfuck
Hi. This got thrown together when I had a moment in the last few days, and I was pleasantly surprised by how much it worked in the order it wound up in. I was messing with that right up until we started things off tonight. And I would be remiss if today’s photo wasn’t of what our good buddy Perseverance is up to.
I’m going to scurry off, eat some cereal, and read Simulacra and Simulation. Excited for more crater action soon.
Playlist (also available on Spotify here): Porcupine Tree – Stars Die Dark Horses – Rose Jessy Lanza – Baby Love (Kate NV Remix) Little Dragon – Please Turn Caribou & Jessy Lanza – Second Chance Fred P – On This Vibe (BED) Double Negative – Second Still Magic Wands – Blue Cherry MJ Guider – FM Secure Atoms for Peace – Default Barra Brown & Tree Palmedo – Whoa! Hey! (BED) Body of Light – Time to Kill Cold Cave – Love Comes Close Depeche Mode – Two Minute Warning Severed Heads – Seven Deadly Diseases ACTORS – Strangers Four Tet – Parallel 4 (BED) Flash Callahan – Do You Know the Truth The Avalanches – Close To You God Lives Underwater – From Your Mouth Beck – High 5 (Rock the Catskills) Daniel Avery – Spring 27 (Silent Servant Remix) Matthew Dear – You Put a Smell on Me The Vacant Lots – Into the Depths (Cold Cave Remix) Neon Indian – Slumlord Panther Modern – The Ups the Downs Four Tet – Parallel 2 Cut Copy – Future
I liked how this one turned out. I had a really bad mental health downturn last week and I just started to snap back into shit in the last two days or so. But I love to park myself at the edge of gothier, darker stuff and club tracks, and that’s what I wanted to do tonight. I miss dancing, but I did some in the apartment thanks to the wonder of being able to switch to Bluetooth ‘phones this week. You may roll your eyes now. But it’s better than nothin’.
I’ve got a new computer now (birthday present to myself, woo) and I borrowed some different mic gear. I listened back to the recordings and things are sounding great, except now I’m quieter, so the futzing shall continue next week.
Getting back into the swing of things and being busy is so much better than waiting around for the other shoe to drop.
Playlist (also available on Spotify here): Boy Harsher – Send Me A Vision Doubting Thomas – Father Don’t Cry Psychemagik – Mink & Shoes (Dub Mix) Bob Moses – The Blame (Helsloot Remix) Telefon Tel Aviv & Robin Guthrie – The Sky is Black Adam Oko – Diet of Germs (BED) Cold Showers – BC ACTORS – P T L (Post-Traumatic Love) Bear in Heaven – Sinful Nature Hot Chip – Hungry Child Holy Fuck – Deleters Pye Corner Audio – Electric Rhythm Number Thirteen (BED – not two, Cal, but thirteen) Ela Minus – they told us it was hard, but they were wrong. James Holden – Each Moment Like the First Rival Consoles – Vibrations on a String Daniel Avery & Alessandro Cortini – CC Pad SBTRKT & Roses Gabor – Pharaohs Krust – Negative Returns (Four Tet Remix) Slugabed – New Worlds Richard Bone – Particle Thought (BED) Young Marble Giants – Credit in the Straight World Black Moth Super Rainbow – Panic Blooms Peaking Lights – A Phoenix and a Fish Air – Dirty Trip (BED) Broadcast – Come On Let’s Go
The initial idea for this show was to do another mallcore extravaganza, but I talked myself out of it and decided it’d be more fun to showcase femmes doing all of the beautiful, brutal shit they do. I felt like garbage this whole week and really needed something cathartic, and this definitely helped. I love exploring the places between, say, Kittie and Lebanon Hanover.
I am in love with the Chelsea Wolfe/Emma Ruth Rundle song and I want more, please. I’m surprised this hadn’t happened before now; their voices are pure sublime magic together.
This feels a little like inappropriate double-dipping, but we had a special situation with me needing to post last week’s show back-to-back with this week’s. And of course, it’s The Tower, but reversed – “the same calamity in a lesser degree.” Fitting.
Playlist (also on Spotify here): Laurel Halo – Dr. Echt (BED) Lacuna Coil – Our Truth Kittie – Brackish Otep – The Lord is My Weapon Huntress – Eight of Swords Arch Enemy – Nemesis Blevin Blectum – Upright Locked Down Broadcast – Bit 35 (BED) Jack Off Jill – Fear of Dying Perfect Pussy – Driver Ashlee Schatze – CLOSET MONSTER Itchy Kitty – Razorface Alice Bag – 77 The Soviettes – Roller Girls Amyl and the Sniffers – GFY Blevin Blectum – Benadrilled and taking on water (BED) Crisis – Waking the Dead Abnormality – Mechanisms of Omniscience Immortal Bird – Anger Breeds Contempt Cult of Luna & Julie Christmas – The Wreck of S.S. Needle Myrkur – Onde Born Chelsea Wolfe & Emma Ruth Rundle – Anhedonia Blevin Blectum – Goth Botch (BED) Paradox Obscur – Dark Fortress Faith & the Muse – Scars Flown Proud (Live) Marriages – Skin Lebanon Hanover – Living on the Edge Boy Harsher – Pain True Widow – Duelist Tamaryn – Mild Confusion Blevin Blectum – Cygnet (BED) Chelsea Wolfe – Flatlands
I had a birthday around the time of this show, and I’m a little late posting this because I had to borrow Chris’s computer to do it; we went away for the weekend and my new laptop hadn’t yet arrived, and the old one just needs too much life support for us to have brought it.
I’m not sure that I really set out to do anything birthday-special with this episode, but I did play a lot of songs that I just really, really like, including the Sisters’ “Under the Gun,” which is brilliant and often slips under people’s radars with that band.
The last track was inspired by S05E09 of the show Six Feet Under, which I had seen a day before this broadcast. No spoilers here, but it’s used in a cataclysmic dream sequence that haunted me for days after, even though I’d already seen the whole show over ten years ago.
I pulled the Queen of Wands reversed for this one. She’s got life blooming all over. Here in the tundra, it looks really nice.
Playlist (also on Spotify here): Secret Shame – Creature Tomorrow Syndicate – Captain, I am Fading Slow Riot – Trophy Wife Cold Showers – Dismiss The Foreign Resort – Obsessing Com Truise – False Ascendancy (BED) Man of Moon – Skin Sara Stuttgart – Surrender The Wake – Big Empty Susannah Stark – Dear Beloved Friend The Sisters of Mercy – Under the Gun FRKSE – Farishtagi (BED) Front Line Assembly – Bio-Mechanic VR SEX – Surrender Laibach – God is God SUPERNOVA 1006 – We Can Fade Away Working Men’s Club – Valleys Legowelt – Revenge of the Nerds (BED) CCFX – Venetian Screens Icky Blossoms – Cycle Automatic – Calling It Skinny Puppy – Glass Houses Four Tet – Two Thousand and Seventeen (BED) David Bowie – Moonage Daydream Wire – Three Girl Rhumba CAN – Moonshake Blancmange – Living on the Ceiling The English Beat – Mirror in the Bathroom Com Truise – I Dream [for you] (BED) Shuggie Otis – Strawberry Letter 23
What’s there to say about this week’s show, other than that it came together at the last second? I was having a hard time compartmentalizing my life this week, still am honestly. As I said on the show, things coalesced around Econoline Crush’s “Devil You Know;” as I didn’t mention, the other cornerstone here was Laurel Halo’s “Light + Space.” I wanted to traverse the spaces I hear between those two points.
I was thinking about the amount of text I’ve written in emails in my life and how they’re the classic case of words you’ll soon forget. It would disturb me to know the word/page count. I was also thinking about some of my recurring dreams of late. One is the classic “have to go back to high school to finish some random class” dream. I also dream of: 1) Austin, Texas; 2) Roads and maps and walls; 3) Getting lost on public transit in places I don’t know yet; 4) Missing flights.
Just pulled a Tarot card at random and it’s The Hermit, reversed. Policy, disguise, unreasoned caution, concealment.
Playlist (also on Spotify here): Stereolab – Dimension M2 Naibu – Just Like You (Fracture’s Austrophonica Mix) Boy Harsher – Send Me a Vision ACTORS – P T L (Post Traumatic Love) Legowelt – Elements of Houz Music (BED) The Soft Moon – Wasting Depeche Mode – Mercy in You SUPERNOVA 1006 – Precious The Sisters of Mercy – Vision Thing Boards of Canada – Peacock Tail (BED) Foie Gras – Sisyphus Tempers – Hell Hotline Perfume Genius – Your Body Changes Everything (Boy Harsher Remix) Alessandro Cortini – LET GO (BED) Nine Inch Nails – The Wretched Econoline Crush – Devil You Know The Jesus & Mary Chain – Snakedriver The Faint – Damage Control Thoughts Detecting Machines – Offline Kaitlyn Aurelia Smith – Stratus (BED) Them Are Us Too – Eudaemonia Bollywood Apologetics – Black Wing Forest Swords – If Your Girl Peter Gabriel – Lay Your Hands On Me Sarah Davachi – Laurus I (BED) Laurel Halo – Light + Space (from an album called Quarantine, which I completely failed to mention)